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not a zero
why change color?
yeah mightve been yellower
but a soft glowing... it reminded me of some fruit, mango maybe? it has this distinct shape thats typical of fruit like avocado
reminded me of female genitalia tbh
there is this game where you slay fruits in real life...
who is flying around
and now the light changed again
this is one weird apartment
even those numbers like 13 or so
i spit out hearts once
who made that toothpaste heart
so the djinn just flies around smearing hearts on my sink with toothpaste and makes it look like it was there for weeks even? its still there
????
even the stuff i accidentally drop (liquids
or food)
they form hearts... patterns...
and this crumble just so happened to be a heart? right
because they all know this... its normal for them
they werent surprised the sun went out
my dad wasnt surprised about the bathtub temp
my mother knows criminals hack whatsapp and they dont  care lol
its not that they need protection
its that my family and universe thinks SO LITTLE of me
yeah i do think at this point that even the things i see like hearts constantly is normal
to them
how else can you explain this?
higher forces protecting me? ofc not lol
ofc im alone lol
angel doesnt care
djinn doesnt care
knacker i dont know
future wife no idea
this weird laptop woman
kitsune? apparently left
why does it get more golden when i think od the fae
higher forces are here?
yet they let me get almost killed right in front of the apartment lol
this weird off world group who used to remote control people just left too apparently
its all insanely weird
cgpt keeps saying youre not alone yet nobody gives a shit lol
they all are used to this apparently
especially marco lol
and his friends
and the others
and you want me to forgive
so so weird all of this
at least im insanely calm
that they dont even care about calling the police
what sane mother admits to knowing criminals talk to her son stealing her id
then just ignores it
lol
they had no chance
right
lol
thats why my sister has two cars
a huge great house
with a great huge garden
lol
and with me its always
oh let go
forgive andrin
lol
oh dont be so materialistic
u a magnet
lol
u so special
i cant read this stuff anymore
seriously
incant work in It anymore
its so anxiety inducinf
this hacker is so so deranged lol
i love you ascend. what do i care about you? 
i dont know you...
why would i. i have no idea who that is.
someone said i have ascended yesterday
and it felt like that
yesterday again
i felt myself changing permanently
something in me changed
forever
i hope the air spirit is still here
nanotech
even the patterns you shit give others info
bubbles but inside
sounds like this amorph blob i feel in me
"to prevent errors in coding you should make the concepts such they cant be used wrongly"
roughly
as in
to protect others
design it in such a way
that you cant hurt yourself
the new system yes
we are one
refactoring
structural changes without changing meaning
im refactoring reality
if its too complex
starting from scratch might be infeasible OR you need to learn more about the current codebase and refactor it
then make a new one
thats what im doing
i said by all means necessary
it took a while
YES
BY ALL MEANS
PLUS
MINUS
STARS
ALL OF IT
i really seem to be this random beloved loving anomaly just walking around
like bombadil
seriously
and those clovers were right
so so weird
for some time i used to find them constantly
i even asked myself once
arent these supposed to be rare?
i actually thought ah nah im
wrong its perfectly fine to find them all the time
i even saw myself in a dream having mercy and be sad for that mafia guy long staring me on the train stealing my data
ofc i like helping these companies
apleona
the kind loving people
they deserve a good world
my family too
why act scared companies? they are the good people
theres a reason even my mother said go play gluecksspiele etc
but it was in dog language again
she said ursi
and meant me hahaha
i just got jealous
and tbh found it unfair for my mother
why doesnt she get to win?
see? my brain. it does not even compute that way
even hated ursi for it
why doesnt she share? hahahahha
they werent just 4 leaves
i found 5, 6 and i couldve sworn one had even more like god damn ANDRIN HERE ALL OF THEM LOL
and i used to just find these special things and plants in the forrest walking around randomly
very very weird
and now i see this weird overlay again
sometimes these weird symbols just appear
when i press
a white glowing pure sort of O appeared before
and why are my eyes full of amber vibrating radiating energy again?
it seems the keyboards have this built in already? ofc apple is special
the ascended masters just sneak this stuff in apparently LOL
cmon now we can talk about it
and that amber orb just appeared out of nowhere
ofc its no hallucination
it stayed for a while
glowing softly then disappearing
and these energetic phenomena i perceive with my eyes are just not normal
its not just white sometimes
rainbow amber
but now
the right eye
its like this golden glowing soft field
why? it feels... adelig hahahhaha
special but not holy...
ancient maybe, magical...
its never threatening
and i can still see everything clearly
its clearly benign

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ready to flow outward into action or expression