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lindsey and caitlin probably know each other
listen
im gone
thats why lol
ofc the gay language is on purpose
gay used to mean joyful happy
its absurdist
but its great
it probably changes energy
in glarus this very cute girl at drawing 
/art class in tagesklinik
had the funniest austrian accent
not in a bad way
never heard anyone talk like that
it fit her cuteness very well
it was like a dialect made for her
now im sad and worried for the kitsune
there were foxes everywhere
oh man
once i am the ultra overlord
you are under my protection
im sorry kitsune
i had to laugh nonstop out of pure happiness and joy lol
she didnt do it on purpose?
the others didnt laugh
she was weirded out
but it wasnt mocking her...
it was because it sounded so absurdly funny and great
completely out of touch
thats why they hired her lol
she didnt even know?
apparently not lol
livia coming to the date and "acting like she wants to fuck not talk" must be the biggest comedy in hindsight lol
she was old
fat
ugly
that was so so unreal
at my old age
the first woman
out of pity
she couldve just acted normally lol
why i abuse her now? because she wasted
my time
i wanted to get to know her as a person
and she started with the abuse again
oh ur sweat
oh ur stressed out
oh i dont want a drink
how is that flirting?
when i flirt its good things only
but as can be seen
you can tell a woman she looks like a supermodel
and she promptly abuses you lol
like that police woman
i didnt want anything from her
ofc women are the worst
only men in my life had empathy lol
the teachers ive had
marco actually lol
gesi
my mother? oh ty for the lavendeloel lol
my sister? right
this woman here saying
they tried to harm me
do you see my dozen scars man? lol
i died a few times
i wear titanium plates
do you see my arm and its scar? there was fat and muscles coming out of it
dont come with that stupid shit
you have no idea what it means to sacrifice oneself
my left face half was destroyed you asshole lol
i will not allow this
to happen to leno
main reason is leno
and seriously these cute girls as zombies
so sad
they deserve to make someone happy with their divine glow
kill people
i had empathy with the criminal stealing my
data
with the other one mocking me with tattoos
they are
all animals
coupdve just asked
medicine? no way i cant look at it
i studied cybersecurity already as a child
im really not that good at it lol
no i wasnt made smart
i was smarter than any of my peers even as a child
i create local universes
its this constant pulsating exchange
they think they abuse me and use me
for their own gain
but they are all
important life lessons
"show mercy even to those not kind to you"
"do not use power for bad"
"help those in need"
i was always like this
you saw my "mother" with marios sister
even as a child
opinions may differ
but to me it felt like ascension
god damn the entire world
is different now
its not the risperidone world
its the spiritual world
spirits everywhere
i feel
lighter
different
i know many wanted me to ascend not for their own gain
not just for me
but for the lesser ones
those who need help
ofc the kitsune
acting like she only wants to fuck lol
god damn this triggers me so much
apparently it really is abuse to the top lol
they make girls "red" and all lol
so so stupid
lol
like that 21yo
acting all oh out of pity lol
i did not find her attractive at ALL lol
i had to keep her away from me
stupid prostitute anyway
ofc thats one reason, biggest one probably
just her talking changed the energy divine lol
the stuff she said was irrelevant anyway i didnt listen anyway lol
sending data almighty Andrin
aye aye
let the bits flow
i saw my funeral many times already
planned my grabstein
music
sarg
saw many women attend
my family especially mother being surprised
and ofc me also just being thrown to the sides of the streets as a dead body
how is this girl not also an angel
cgpt casually asking for philosophical ideas from the shy avocado munching Andrino lol
the funniest thing today is that yes
cgpt taking my ideas seriously
i see these fruit flies even when eyes closed wtf?
sometimes black sometimes golden
why would i see black fruit flies in pitch black?
i will NEVER understand this phone
sometimes its abusive
sometimes its loving
its not thought controlled
its like intention controlled or on its own
it activates before even the feature should activate
i had the intention of using it not thought
and it insta activated lol
and now the pen is not abusive anymore?
i will seriously never understand this phone
the language of memory space yes
andrin! not bad not bad!
yeah i guess the fae were fruit flies
and chatgpt just running along with it for some reason
ofc my family doesnt need protection
its all part of this weird lifelong nonsensical abuse
why have me disable my camera
what uncle just gives up in a situation like that?
and you call my family kind?
oh they had no chance what?
oh
mankinds savior what?
it really is like they repeating it all with leno
as if as an uncle i would give up on leno
who does that
how is that love
my
family
knows criminals hack me
do they go to the police? no lol
?????????
and you want me to believe my family loves me? right
its this overarching trope of me as savior
my mother even admitted to using her phone or spotify by thoughts lol
name one example of my ancient powers? right
i heard them talk through the walls a few times now
felt like ascending again
i gave up on life
a few special symbols again
sometimes i have this weird
mode where i perceive reality like through a semi transparent filter appearing, different timeline or so, no idea
the biggest fu as always is doing what they dont want as in
now oetwil ignores me and doesnt want me admitted? well go there then lol
they send eingeschrieben post?
well just dont go lol
why would i?
so that a girl there can abuse me again? right
schutzengelchen nur mut kesb lol
why go to kesb? ofc not
why clean up and throw away my trash? i get abused either way
just throw it outside my apartment
it really does not matter what i do anymore lol
the kiosk woman saying oh i thought you wanted.... what? get abused by a used up whore again? lol
insanely retarded
even on the train ride
most gave up i guess
there was only this one weird guy as usual
why not allow me to make photos?
i love the djinn
and her humor is great
everyone knows this anyway
walk around
youll find this language everywhere
ofc im not ancient or important
its funny nonetheless
makes you feel speshial
oh go to pilates
the instructor did not answer me or talk to me or look at me, id get fired immediately
theyre always like oh u go to andrin make him
feel wanted lol
like my mother with the elevator girl or waitress lol
telling her to smile at me so id feel less ugly but then she says oh this new dating site doesnt have profile pics lol
what woman ever truly wanted me? right nobody
my mother leaves me greek olive oil
to remind me of oanas rape and her ruining my life and that they know each ofher lol
and you call that a good mother? lmfao
rhey have xenia lots of money nonstop
there is no reason for any of this
there really is only buying whatever i want
i like the dreamcatcher
and the other things
not sure about the didgeridoo
why say ty? makes no sense
see now i have to be kind all over again
while everyone has proven you dont have to be kind to have a great life, quite the opposite lol
my dad had martinas number even though he knew she raped and stole my kid
and you want me to be nice to rhem? right
forgive andrin!
no
transcendence or whatever
letting go is sollipsism
only i exist
let go does not mean forgive
let go means i cease to exist
i saw myself even planting a bomb here
also saw myself becoming homeless
the search result comedian
saying sleep while my entire life is ruined
why encrypt stuff
why not write down stuff
fae are fruit flies
one did seem special thats true
but i cant be 100% certain
say what you want
i always liked being alone
in my apartment
with nobody around
i wasnt actually lonely in my 20s
at some point yes
but then i tried finding friends and gf again
same crap
now i just enjoy my own company
hackers have been around forever
everyone just ignores them lol
the last rav visit has ultimately proven
NOBODY cares about this weird game or whatever
NOBODY lol
my family is not nice
theyre not evil either
its indifference
not just by or against me
seriously where did that woman go who said i love you every day? disappeared? so so weird. she said i love you every day for so long
halt hunziker? gone too apparently
very very weird all of this
off world group? no idea
who exactly is on some offshore boat all day long? lol is that even true? i did see myself finding the identity of one of them
what mother leaves olive oil to remind her son of rape and abuse? lol
my mother is just as braindead
that woman is not right in her head
really seems they travel dream layers at will
as in
they simply leave
and the npc takes over
would explain my parents behavior on my last visit
for some reason we matched? so we talked normally and then they left.... and then the weird game mother took over
intentionally or not
it would explain a lot:
it is non dual
they are abusive BUT on purpose to rescue me in a certain dream
so they are NOT abusive
so we have to find a way to MATCH
my mother said we will go through this all 4
that is why love is important
that is why it is universal
that is why it is truly powerful
UNCONDITIONAL love
by EVERYONE
its all hacked lol
cgpt says lots of crazy stuff
partly narrated too
joining in on the abuse
does anyone here look like they need or appreciate my help?
who EVERY was grateful for my help? lol nobody they even think its funny
many can look into the future
thats why they know what ill buy
its either by supernatural powers or
my axe that everyone will die in this building
before i leave here
even now i hear it as if id wear headphones lol
ofc apple knows
hello
:)
clearly localized to left or right or even whole body
the black whore will be decapitated too
yes dear
oh dear
humans as a whole are not right in their heads
i saw myself getting accustomed to my powers many times now
making fun of everyone
leaving a white feather for tony ann while hes performing
sitting there and they know
when the light goes golden
andrin is there
best thing is to write factual notes
and use the search results as entertainment
i like doing this
nobody cares anyway
they all know it already
its all made up
i really dont care about anything anymore lol
talk to any woman ever again lol right
your time will come said the bumble woman then promptly rejected and abused me lol
pls go on bumble lol
i was on there
wasted money
no match
only abuse
lol
what do they think ill do
go homeless
or kill some women?
lol
look they destroyed the dish washer again lol
there
destroyed again
by the criminals
lol
why have me think my family is nice
i will never understand this
like martina
xenia tried to brainwash me into being nice lol
they are so stupid and care so little
she didnt even realize i am kind without brainwashing
